So here I am. It's already the end of January. In two weeks I leave for India and I am terrified beyond anything at the thought of it all. I guess I'm using this entry as more of a "Oh my god" entry then anything else. 

I know it's not just me who feels like January is moving by at a speed that would make anyones head spin faster then Webster in his grave after the onset of lolcats. Or LoLcatz if you will. I don't know exactly how to spell it... which i suppose is the epitome of irony right there. 

You know what I love? Lemurs. Lemurs make my day just a little bit brighter. 

So there's this musician named Krissi and she's asked me to do a dance video for her. I'm intruiged. I might actually do it. I figure it could be fun. 

I was going to have a point to this entry, but I see that's all gone by the wayside in favour of randomness and more randomness. What a surprise. 

Maybe next time I'll have a point. 

Maybe. 

I doubt it though. 

In  a month, I'll be in India. 

Why is it that before a big, potentially life changing event, everything at home seems to get blown into a million pieces. It's a long difficult process to prepare for a long difficult process. 

Attack of the Han-ra-head shark

Man is this class boring. 

I took film because I thought it would be interesting. And it would be... but why is a class with so much promise wasted? It's almost joke like. Our teacher is a great man. He's nice and he's invested in his students (as much as can be of course) but when the man drones on for over an hour before even starting to talk to the movie, it makes things more then a little ridiculous. 

I want to like this class. As all of you who have followed this blog know, I work at Blockbuster. More then anything I want to be an actor. Movies are one of the most important things to me, right up there with pizza and Jesus, but if I fall asleep before he even puts the movie on, how can I be expected to care about the movie I'm watching after? 

Given some of the movies we've watched have been enjoyable. Citizen Kane to this day remains one of my favorite movies  of all time. 

1. Monty Python and the Holy Grail

2. Labyrinth

3. Nightmare Before Christmas

4. Josie and the Pussycats

5. Citizen Kane

See. It's right there under the Pussy's. 

The only thing that prevents this course from being a must take, is the  fact that our teacher can't keep his mouth closed for ten minutes without telling us what he had for breakfast that morning and the after effects of the soup on your perception of a movie. 

It's crazy. He's crazy. 

Thank god for Cheryl, and Kylie, for making it possible to get through. 

No one will ever argue that you deserve better than me. It just kills me that you found it. 

Ever had one of those days where you just feel like you've failed? Has it ever lasted more then a day? How about a week? What about longer? What if you've had this feeling for as long as you could remember? 

Well for me, it thankfully hasn't been that long, but ever since I came back home from Toronto I've felt this way. I've felt as if I'm taking a step back in my life. It's as if everything I want out of life, is somewhere else, or passing me by, or is so unattainable that I can't even begin to grasp at it. It's like I'm one step behind destiny, and too short to get picked out of the crowd. 

I have a sad addiction, which I'm pretty sure stems from this feeling. I've always felt inadequate in many ways, but recently, I've got this awful burning desire to be noticed. Noticed by someone, anyone... Just someone who sees who I really am. Every side of me, and can still appreciate it. Let's face it, I'm far from perfect. I've got issues a mile wide and twice as severe, but I suppose this is all a part of growing up. 

Anyway, here I am. One day away from going back to school, and totally, and completely... unsatisfied. 

I hate the idea of going back. I want to quit. I'm sick and tired of school already. I'm sick and tired of a job that I hate more by the week. I'm sick of being stuck in a nowhere town with no real futures here. I don't want to do retail for the rest of my life, but that's all that's here. So what do you do? 

Well it's too late to leave school, so I might as well finish what I started. As for next year... well I guess we'll have to play this whole thing by ear now. 

I'm legitimately scared. This whole recession bordering on depression is... well... depressing. How can something so bad have gone on so long? Who can we really blame? I'd like to blame this all on Bush, but can we really? If anyone I'd say the blame falls on the corporations and the banks for making bad decisions. There is not much of a happy ending to that story. 

What good is saving up your money if any second the bank could dissolve leaving your finances swimming in a pond somewhere. It's really not very smart. 

I like to pretend I'm all knowing and good at all this political and social mumbo jumbo, but it's more accurate to say I haven't the foggiest what's really going on. 

That is all I have to say at this time. I'm scared. I'm scared that when I get a job, i'll get laid off. Or that when I move to Toronto, there'll be no room. 

There's really something to these old movies. Back when movies has a point and a moral to the story. We're watching Dragon heart right now. The one with Sean Connery and Dennis Quaid. It's quite interesting how far we've come in terms of special effects. Even the textures of the CGI dragon... it's kind of shocking in a way. How much better can graphics get? Or will they ever get any better? What will happen to the movie industry if the economy goes bye-bye? 

I have no idea. Still scared. 

Sigh... Now I wonder what I want to do with me life. I always wanted to be an actor or writer... but now... I really don't know. 

Wanted: Wanted

It's been a long time since there was a really good movie about justice. And let me tell you, it's rather fascinating when a good justice movie comes along. 

Some might argue the Punisher as a good justice movie, but I disagree. It's a good movie, but the violence never truly outweighs the justice element.

Another is Fight Club, but that's been so long ago that it's status has decreased a little bit. That's not to say this movie does not rock, because it does. But I don't know if you can really justify it as a justice themed movie. 

More recently there are the Jodie Foster movies - The Brave One and Flight plan. Both very good. But the Brave One is just way too dramatic. It's a fascinating movie, but I don't know if it's justice in question, or if it's just one womans revenge story. 

This brings me to the real reason - 

It's Wanted. 

If you want a movie that's true to form as far as a movie where justice is truly served, this one tops the list. It's entertaining, has action scenes that are sexy as all Kylie, and it truly rocks. I'm quite impressed with this movie if you can't tell. 

I can't recommend it enough. It's that good. 

But if you don't like action or violence I'd avoid it. My dad actually came into the tv room and asked me what the hell I was watching. It's a touch excessive, but if you can forgive it at times, you'll find something to dig. 

Although Kayla didn't like it. Maybe I'm breathing too much into this but I enjoyed it.